Rabu, 04 Mei 2011

Romans 12:9-21 (Everything Will be Wonderful Just in Time)

Today I decided to have a reflection by reading a bible and also praying. I feel so fragile because I am up against some problems in my life now on. I always try to be a cloudless person, hiding my desolation and also my anxiety. I am afraid of being called 'weak' or 'ungrateful'. I know GOD gives me many things to be thankful for, but every mankind has undeniably problems in their life, and so do I. I also don't feel very pleasurable with the youth organization in my church. The succinctness and solidarity which we had like dissipated. I don't know if I am wrong or not, but honestly, I know something is going wrong with us for I feel it happens among us now.. Honestly, this is so sad.. We were so close and we had so much laughter and great times together.. I become more crumbly and don't know whom I should share my problems to. I also feel sluggish to join the youth organization; the bible class every Saturday night and the choir practice every Sunday. I don't wanna be a faked person; I cannot join such a faith fellowship while I don't feel the spiritual growth inside me. Everything changes so fast.. Problems are getting bigger and more than I had before. I cannot rely on anyone. I feel so empty and flat. I cannot cry. I really don't know what to do. I don't know what I feel, either.
   GOD knows I am now so weak now. But, thank GOD, he knocked my heart. HE always makes me to remember HIM every time I feel so cranky to stand. By reading bible today, I found Romans 12:9-21. I didn't plan to open any verse, GOD just led me to. These are the contents:

"Let love be without dissimulation. Abhor that which is evil; cleave to that which is good. Be kindly affectioned one to another with brotherly love; in honour preferring one another; Not slothful in business; fervent in spirit; serving the Lord; Rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing instant in prayer;  Distributing to the necessity of saints; given to hospitality.  Bless them which persecute you: bless, and curse not. Rejoice with them that do rejoice, and weep with them that weep. Be of the same mind one toward another. Mind not high things, but condescend to men of low estate. Be not wise in your own conceits. Recompense to no man evil for evil. Provide things honest in the sight of all men. If it be possible, as much as lieth in you, live peaceably with all men. Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord. Therefore if thine enemy hunger, feed him; if he thirst, give him drink: for in so doing thou shalt heap coals of fire on his head. Be not overcome of evil, but overcome evil with good".

   I was so surprised. I felt like GOD talked to me through it. Those verses I read are very precise to the condition I feel right now. I really cannot explain the detail of my problems, but I'm not trying to brag that GOD gives me hopes and solutions to my problems. HE will not leave me alone to handle it. HE lets me to take care of my life and every problem in it, but HE never lets me to deal with it alone. HE holds my hands and guides my steps. I am sure whatever happens now, everything will be just fine. I just need to be optimism and always be thankful to what I've got. I will live my life well, and make HIS words as the guidance of it. Like HE said,"Rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing instant in prayer" (Romans 12:12). I will not worried about anything. JESUS is always be with me, and HE even lives in my heart. I know I will never lose HIS light. Everything will be wonderful just in time :')







Esra Masniari Tambunan

Selasa, 03 Mei 2011

The Cheesy Sides Of Me! :p

Holaaa! Yeaa how are you my bloggie? I miss yew soo badly huhuuu. I've been waiting for writing in this blog again, and voilaa! I got some new idea :) Hehe. Sebenernya sekarang sih cuman mau cerita-cerita aja nih. Ceritanya ya sama kayak judul tulisan ini sekarang. Yippiieee I'm gonna write about some cheesy sides of me!

Cheesy sides? Uh-uh. Menurut gue tuh yaaaa, setinggi apapun tubuh orang yo pasti dia nginjek tanah juga! Maksut gue, yaa setinggi apapun selera gue akan segala sesuatu (halah) ya pasti gue juga punya hal-hal kesukaan yang apa-banget-sih-lo, gidu.. Ah, daripada jadi membingungkan mending gue mulai cerita ajoje!

My first cheesy side:
Gue kan suka banget yah sama lagu-lagu barat tuh. Kayak lagu-lagunya The Script, Lady Gaga, Katy Perry, Akon, Michael Buble, Justin Bieber (ok, gue bukan salah-satu-belieber-yang-nyanyi-That Should Be Me-nya bieber-sambil-nangis. gue cuman suka lagu-lagunya bieber. ok?), Bruno Mars, dll deh pokoknya. Naaah, kali ini gue mau ngaku! Kalaaauuu, gue suka banget banget sama lagunyaaaaaaaa..... Cinta Laura! JANGAN KAGET! Cuman 1 lagu kok-_- Yang judulnya Oh Baby. Tau kan yang mana? Yang ini nih liriknya:

I don't wanna lose you, yes I wanna hold you
I don't wanna make you, make you sad and make you cry

Hahahaha. Iya suka banget. Walaupun Cinca Lawla itu sering banget dapet cemooh sama temen-temen gue karna aksen inggrisnya yang lebaaaaay banget (Obama aja kayaknya gak gitu-_-), gue tetep suka kok sama lagu dia yang satu itu. Abis beatnya enaak. Pokoknya meskipun lagunya booming cuman bentar, sampe sekarang gue masih suka kok sama tuh lagu :p Yeaaah, Cinca Lawla, yew rowckk! (lebay, man)


My Second Cheesy Side
Gue cengeng; cengeng banget sumpah. Drama queen banget deh pokoknya! Lo mungkin bakal mikir normal-normal aja kalau gue nangis deres banget waktu nonton film Hachiko, Home Sweet Home nya Hongkong, or I am Sam. Nangis sesunggukan waktu nonton film-film macam gitu sih wajar-wajar aja kan? Naaah, tapi gue bahkan nangis waktu nonton Australia's Junior Masterchef :D Haaaa iya gue nangis. Emang sih gak ada adegan romantic tragedy or some kind like that, tapi keceriaan anak-anak Masterchef itu loh yang bikin gue terharuuu banget huhuu. Mereka jujur banget waktu mereka seneng, dan bahkan waktu temen mereka menang tantangan mereka meluk temennya dan ikutan seneng! Gue bisa liat kalau mereka itu jujur. Yampun dunia indah banget kali yah, kalau semua orang sifatnya kayak anak-anak itu :) Hehe, ya itulah sisi cheesy kedua di dalam diri gue!

Yaudah gue gak nemu sisi cheesy lainnya dalam diri gue :p Check out dulu yah! Bubyee cupcupcupsss! X



With un-cheesy love,
Esra Masniari Tambunan

Sabtu, 30 April 2011

I Might Have Been Wrong

I thought everything's gonna be just fine
Like I just sit and drink my wine
But when it comes to the phase hangover,
My mind went blank and every mystery is just over

I thought the sky is blue
Like the cow definitely says moo
But when I keep him the byre
He jumps out and I'm burnt in fire

I pray and eat like Sam
Being peace and also calm
But when the flat is attacking
Now I'm asking and grieving

Where the hell is the truth?
Why am I now sitting in a booth?
What is so wrong being assured?
How could now the entire of the hopes are absurd?

I might have been wrong

Senin, 18 April 2011

YESUS

Aku pernah bau borok
Rasanya gatal dan sangat enak
Ya, aku nista

Tapi ada seseorang yang rela dicambuki demi membasuhku
Dia rela bermandikan darahNya sendiri untuk mencuci nanahku
Aku kenal terang dan meninggalkan gelap karena cahayaNya menuntunku

Namanya Yesus
Karna pahlawan itu aku pulih, sembuh, putih.


Esra Masniari Tambunan

Jumat, 15 April 2011

Sinetron Pendek Gue

   Aku sedang berjalan di sunyi malam ketika tiba-tiba ada seseorang yang menubrukku.
   "Duh!" pekikku. Aku terjatuh, buku yang kubawa berserakan dimana-mana. Aku menatap ke atas, mencoba untuk menemukan siapa orang yang telah menabrakku seenaknya.
   "Heh? Punya mata ga sih?" ujarku kesal.
   "Maaf", ujar orang yang telah menabrakku. Ia seorang laki-laki yang ternyata sangat tampan. Tapi karena sedang kesal, aku tidak perduli akan ketampanannya.
   "Yaudah sih bantu gue berdiri kali", ujarku ketus. Namun, lelaki itu malah melenggang pergi, meninggalkan aku yang masih terduduk di aspal. Aku melotot kesal, namun tidak memanggilnya, hanya membiarkan dirinya pergi begitu saja.

   Itu 3 tahun lalu. Sekarang aku sudah berada di pelukan Barel, lelaki yang dulu menabrakku dan membiarkanku terduduk di aspal. Ya, dia ternyata menyukaiku. Padahal, dulu sikapnya sangat ketus. 2 tahun sudah aku berpacaran dengan Barel. Kami sudah melewati masa-masa dimana orangtua Barel yang konglomerat, melarang Barel untuk berpacaran denganku yang merupakan anak dari seorang tukang nasi goreng keliling.
   Aku dan Barel juga telah melewati masa-masa dimana kami bertengkar dan menangis di tengah hujan, masa-masa dimana seorang cewek bernama Nischa menyukai Barel dan ingin merebutnya. Bahkan aku dan Barel juga telah melewati masa-masa sulit saat Barel hilang ingatan, dan ketika aku harus dibuat seolah-olah mati oleh Nischa. Aku dan Barel akan terus bersama-sama melewati hidup kami bersama, selamanya, meski hingga belasan session yang menunggu untuk menyiksa cinta kami.


Tertanda:
Pitri.



p.s: -__________________________________- *semua sinetron Indo kan gini yakkk


with lope-lope,
Esra Masniari Tambunan

Kamis, 14 April 2011

Namanya Bumi, Peduli Lo Sama Dia?

   Iya, namanya bumi. Dia lagi sakit. Nama penyakitnya Global Warming. Orang-orang tau kok tentang global warming. Apa apa? Ya pokoknya tentang perubahan drastis suhu bumi. Penjelasannya panjaang, kalau mau tau banyak tentang penjelasan global warming buka link ini. Barangkali banyak yang ga ngerti what global warming is, gitu kan.

   Penyebab global warming? Manusia. Ya pemakaian plastik berlebihan lah, padahal untuk menguraikan plastik butuh waktu ratusan tahun! Ya pake AC berlebihan lah, boros listrik, boros energi, pemakaian kendaraan bermotor yang berlebihan, dan masih banyak lagi. Manusia suka ngeluh dan nangis waktu hawa terlalu panas, hujan es, perkembang biakan ulat bulu yang meledak, dan juga bencana-bencana akibat global warming, tapi ga ada yang dilakuin buat mengatasi semuanya itu. Gue sering banget ya dibilang sok-sok an waktu gue paling sigap matiin lampu yang ga perlu, matiin AC yang ga perlu, nyabut chargeran yang ga dipake, dan jarang make plastik setiap belanja; karena biasanya gue masukin tas aja. Hal-hal kecil kayak gitu tuh yang jarang banget diperhatiin manusia.
 
   Contohnya nih ya, kita ga akan rugi kok kalau kita matiin AC di kamar kost kita sewaktu kita lagi ga di kamar. Gue tau kalian bayar full buat AC, tapi sumpah deh mikir wisely, apa ruginya matiin AC waktu kita lagi ga di kamar? Sumpah pocong deh, ga ada ruginya-_- Coba bayangin ada berapa banyak AC yang dipake dan ga pernah dimatiin di dunia ini? Tiap gedung perkantoran? Tiap sekolah elit? Tiap rumah sakit? Tiap rumah? Tiap mall? Tiap ruko? Bayangkan betapa borosnya manusia!
    Lagi nih, apa susahnya sih ga make plastik waktu cuman beli 1/2/3 barang? Apalagi waktu kita bawa tas. Lebih baik lagi malah tiap belanja kita bawa kantong sendiri, yang ga terbuat dari plastik. Apa juga susahnya mencabut charger hp setiap kita selesai make? Ga susah loh. Tinggal cabut terus gulung kabelnya. Dengan gitu kita ga perlu buang-buang aliran listrik yang ga kepake, dan hal itu juga bisa bikin charger hp kita awet toh? Gue awalnya sering banget ngecharge hp di kampus, soalnya batere android boros. Tapi sekarang gue rubah settingan internet hp gue jadi ga selalu available buat net working. Gue cuman enable internetnya waktu gue mau make aja. Hasilnya? Sangat jauh berbeda. Batere gue jadi tahan lama, alias 2 hari dan ga perlu sering-sering ngecharge deh! Hemat kan?
   Pemakain air. Wew, mbak gue tiap nyuci piring airnya gedeee banget. Ckck. Akhirnya gue tegor, buat make aliran air yang biasa aja. Sumpah juga nih, tetep bersih kok, dan ga perlu buang-buang air juga jadinya. Bayangin suatu hari nanti karna efek global warming kita jadi kekurangan air bersih. Mau minum apa? Mandi pake apa? Nyuci pake apa? Jadi baiknya kita hemat air dari sekarang kan? Ohya dengan mandi memakai shower/pancuran itu jauh lebih hemat loh dibanding dengan gayung.

   Matiin lampu pas tidur. Itu sangat baik untuk mengistirahatkan seluruh tubuh kita. Menyalakan lampu saat tidur juga bisa memancing sel kanker untuk aktif di tubuh kita, loh. Jadi baik banget kan buat tidur dengan ruangan gelap? Buat yang parnoan, gausa takut deh. Hantu dan segala macem yang kalian takutin itu ga akan bisa nyakitin kalian. Tuhan menciptakan manusia untuk memiliki derajat yang lebih tinggi daripada hal-hal gaib itu, jadi gausah jadi penakut kayak adek-adek gue, ok? :D
   Ohya juga bayangin deh betapa banyak lampu yang nyala setiap harinya? Di rumah lah, di setiap gedung, dan di setiap tempat yang buka 24 jam. Wow banget kalau kalian bisa hitung ceman-ceman! Jadi dengan menghemat lampu dimulai dari diri sendiri juga sangat berguna loh. Hemat listrik juga bisa dengan cara membatasi pemakaian alat-alat listrik, juga internet. Gausah juga kan internetan seharian, setengah hari atau berjam-jam? Face the real world for we live in it!


   Btw walaupun gue gak gitu suka memelihara taneman hias, di rumah gue banyak pohon dan tumbuhan, karna ortu gue suka meliharanya. Jadi, maksut gue, coba sayangin tumbuh-tumbuhan hijau. Kalau bisa sih gue mau ga ada lagi penebangan liar yang bikin hutan jadi gini nih:




:((

Padahal dulu bumi punya banyak hutan-hutan subur kayak gini:





Hiks sedih banget kan :( Gue juga nemu 1 gambar yang bener-bener menunjukkan betapa efek global warming itu bener-bener memprihatinkan banget. Liat deh:


   Ngeri banget :'( Gue pernah liat lebih banyak lagi efek parah dari global warming, tapi susah nih nyarinya. Yah pokoknya efek paling nyata itu adalah rasa panas yang menusuk sang matahari. Ngerasain kan? Gue sih gpp dibilang sok suci daripada gue gatau apa yang bakal anak cucu gue rasain 20 tahun lagi. Atau, dimana mereka tinggal 20 tahun lagi kalau panas matahari sekarang aja udah membakar kulit? Hmm, atau, masih ada kah bumi 20 tahun lagi? Kalau kondisinya aja sekarang gini, kan, ragu gue jadinya..
 
   Orang-orang bilang manusia primitive kayak suku Aborigine itu manusia bar-bar karena mereka masih sangat membumi, tapi coba telusuri lagi deh. Siapa yang bar-bar? Gue rasa manusia modern. Kalau suku aborigine sih masih sangat sayang sama bumi. Gue ga bilang kita untuk hidup seperti mereka, tapi kalau yang-orang-bilang-bar-bar aja masih sayang sama bumi kok, kenapa kita yang-udah-sekolah-dan-pinter malah yang ga sayang sama bumi?
  Sayangi bumi dengan dimulai dari diri sendiri dan bagikan kepada orang lain. Hal-hal kecil itu bakal sangat berarti, karna jika yang ngelakuin 1 orang kemudian diteruskan kepada orang lainnya, itu bakal jadi hal yang besar dan bermanfaat buat kehidupan kita sendiri.

   Lebih baik mulai sekarang kita sama-sama gausah egois dan mulai untuk ngoreksi ke dalem hati kita masing-masing bahwa "Apa sih salahnya ngejaga bumi kita sendiri, tempat bernaung seluruh umat manusia?"


  So, masih ga perduli?


Esra Masniari Tambunan

Ah, I Love The Script! ♥

   Yeaa, bloggies! I have a new fave band :D It's The Script! Y do i like it? Because they have many reasons to be loved by my many ones in this world haha. Do I exaggerate? :p I'm not joking! The Script is an adorable band. They have super fine quality songs, great music arrangement, and the vocalist has a sexy great voice! DAMN, I love them! Their genre of music is rock alternative and If you think this is an ads of The Script, you got it wrong :D I'm not promoting 'em, guys. I'm just telling how much The Script deserves to be loved ;);)
   
    By the way, The Script comes from London. They are Irish, but now they live in London, England. Psst, Danny is also gorgeous :p Nooo, you may think that I like the people, but the truth is I LOVE the music ;)

   Here I give some of their pictures!




    Cool ryte?! :) The Script has only three personnel:  Danny O'Donoghue (Vocalist), Mark Sheehan (Lead Guitar, Backing Vocal), Glen Power (Drummer, Backing Vocal, Rhythm Guitar) Despite their small crews The Script makes it simply big with their great carrier. I can't stop saying how much I love them because their musics make a very nice impression in my mind and my heart :p Well, first love I heard from them was The Man Who Can't Be Moved; and I kept repeating that song over and over. I didn't mean to make its lyric memorized well by me, but I became memorizing it :) When I thought I love the music of The Script and they left a lasting impression, I downloaded their other songs, and I started listening to it. And what is the result? I'm amazed by their songs until now! I thought they only got one great song, but they were not. Well, I'm a bit late of knowing them, but it's fine, because now I know how beautiful their music is :D

   These are some great songs of The Script I use to hear:
   * The Man Who Can't Be Moved
   * For The First Time
   * Breakeven
   * We Cry
   * Before The Worst
   * If You See Kay
   * If You Come Back
   * The End Where I Begin
   * Nothing
   * Rusty Hello

   Well, actually I love many great singers too, such as Mariah Carey, Akon, Michael Buble, Eminem, BEP, Lady Gaga, Beyonce, Maroon 5, Justin Bieber, Chris Brown, Ne Yo, Rihanna, Gwen Stefani, Pussycat Dolls, Leona Lewis, My Chemical Romance, Usher, and many more. But, after My Chemical Romance and Maroon 5, The Script is the latest band I super like! I have been loving my fave singers/groups I mentioned above since I was in Junior High School, anw. Do you see that I'm more interested in hip hop music? Yeah, it's right. So, The Script is the only exception :D OK, I love band music too, but if only they're really nice. For Indonesian band I love Sheila on 7 and Padi. I used to love Peterpan songs, but since their 2 personnel were out, I don't know why they become suck-___- 

  Okaaay, I just really hope The Script will have a plan to come and hold a concert in Jakarta! And when it happens, I also really hope that I can see them live! I hope it so much T.T While I haven't heard any news of their visit to Jakarta, it's better for me to start saving money for buying their ticket concert one day :D I don't wanna miss any concerts of my fave singers/groups singers over again just like I usually did :-/ AMEEEEEEENNN.


   See you so soon, dear The Script!!


with super love,
Esra Masniari Tambunan